Thanks for sharing your situation with us.
I would encourage you to fight to push away those negative thoughts about failing. I hope you will take heart in knowing that there are no perfect people! Thoughtful evaluation of the past has its place. Talk to God about how you feel and then leave your sins and mistakes at the foot of the cross! His forgiveness is full and complete. Start viewing yourself, if possible, through His eyes: a man, who though imperfect, is forgiven and loved.
Don't let past regrets paralyze you from taking positive steps now. I would suggest that you focus on the present and future. It's absolutely not too late to make some changes with how you fulfill your various roles as a man, husband, father and Christian. While you can't erase the past, you are free to choose to live differently today. Start by trying to engage your family in an open, honest discussion about how you feel and the how you would like things to change in the future. This discussion may well include admitting past mistakes, but again, don't let the past become the primary focus of the discussion.
Any barriers in your relationships weren't built in a day, so don't become discouraged if the walls takes time to come down, one brick at a time. But, stick with it - it's well worth the effort!
Blessings to you. |
